Don't Read the Comments
Eric Smith
On Sale Date: January 28, 2020
9781335016027, 1335016023
Hardcover
$18.99 USD, $23.99 CAD
Ages 13 And Up
368 pages
Summary:
Slay meets Eliza and Her Monsters in
Eric Smith’s Don't Read the Comments, an #ownvoices story in which
two teen gamers find their virtual worlds—and blossoming
romance—invaded by the real-world issues of trolling and doxing in
the gaming community.
Divya Sharma is a queen. Or she is when
she’s playing Reclaim the Sun, the year’s hottest online game.
Divya—better known as popular streaming gamer D1V—regularly leads
her #AngstArmada on quests through the game’s vast and gorgeous
virtual universe. But for Divya, this is more than just a game. Out
in the real world, she’s trading her rising-star status for
sponsorships to help her struggling single mom pay the rent.
Gaming is basically Aaron Jericho’s
entire life. Much to his mother’s frustration, Aaron has zero
interest in becoming a doctor like her, and spends his free time
writing games for a local developer. At least he can escape into
Reclaim the Sun—and with a trillion worlds to explore, disappearing
should be easy. But to his surprise, he somehow ends up on the same
remote planet as celebrity gamer D1V.
At home, Divya and Aaron grapple with
their problems alone, but in the game, they have each other to face
infinite new worlds…and the growing legion of trolls populating
them. Soon the virtual harassment seeps into reality when a group
called the Vox Populi begin launching real-world doxxing campaigns,
threatening Aaron’s dreams and Divya’s actual life. The online
trolls think they can drive her out of the game, but everything and
everyone Divya cares about is on the line…
And she isn’t going down without a
fight.
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~~~***~~~***~~~ EXCERPT ~~~***~~~***~~~
1 Divya
Mom. We’ve been
over this. Don’t read the comments,” I say, sighing as my mother
stares at me with her fret ful deep-set eyes. They’re dark green,
just like mine, and stand out against her soft brown skin. Wrinkle
lines trail out from the corners like thin tree branches grown over a
life time of worrying.
I wish I could wash
away all of her worries, but I only seem to be causing her more
lately.
“I’m just not
comfortable with it anymore,” my mom coun ters. “I appreciate
what you’re doing with…you know, your earnings or however that
sponsor stuff works, but I can’t stand seeing what they’re saying
about you on the Internet.”
“So don’t read
the comments!” I exclaim, reaching out and taking her hands in
mine. Her palms are weathered, like the pages of the books she moves
around at the library, and I can feel the creases in her skin as my
fingers run over them. Bundles of multicolored bangles dangle from
both of her wrists, clinking about lightly.
“How am I
supposed to do that?” she asks, giving my hands a squeeze. “You’re
my daughter. And they say such awful things. They don’t even know
you. Breaks my heart.”
“What did I just
say?” I ask, letting go of her hands, trying to give her my warmest
it’s-going-to-be-okay smile. I know she only reads the blogs, the
articles covering this and that, so she just sees the replies there,
the sprawling comments—and not what people say on social media. Not
what the trolls say about her. Because moms are the easiest
target for those online monsters.
“Yes, yes, I’m
aware of that sign in your room with your slo gan regarding
comments,” Mom scoffs, shaking her head and getting to her feet.
She groans a little as she pushes herself off the tiny sofa, which
sinks in too much. Not in the comfortable way a squishy couch might,
but in a
this-piece-of-furniture-needs-to-be-thrown-away-because-it’s-probably-doing-irreversible-damage-to-my-back-and-internal-organs
kind of way. She stretches her back, one hand on her waist, and I
make a mental note to check online for furniture sales at Tar get or
Ikea once she heads to work.
“Oof,
I must have slept on it wrong,” Mom mutters, turn ing to look at
me. But I know better. She’s saying that for my benefit. The air
mattress on her bed frame—in lieu of an ac tual mattress—isn’t
doing her back any favors.
I’d
better add a cheap mattress to my list of things to search for later.
Anything is better than her sleeping on what our family used to go
camping with.
Still,
I force myself to nod and say, “Probably.” If Mom knew how easily
I saw through this dance of ours, the way we pretend that things are
okay while everything is falling apart around us, she’d only worry
more.
Maybe
she does know. Maybe that’s part of the dance.
I
avert my gaze from hers and glance down at my watch. It’s the
latest in smartwatch tech from Samsung, a beautiful little thing that
connects to my phone and computer, controls the streaming box on our
television… Hell, if we could af ford smart lights in our
apartment, it could handle those, too. It’s nearly 8:00 p.m., which
means my Glitch subscribers will be tuning in for my scheduled gaming
stream of Reclaim
the Sun at
any minute. A couple social media notifications start lighting up the
edges of the little screen, but it isn’t the unread messages or the
time that taunt me.
It’s
the date.
The
end of June is only a few days away, which means the rent is due. How
can my mom stand here and talk about me getting rid of my Glitch
channel when it’s bringing in just enough revenue to help cover the
rent? To pay for groceries? When the products I’m sent to review or
sponsored to wear—and then consequently sell—have been keeping us
afloat with at least a little money to walk around with?
“I’m
going to start looking for a second job,” Mom says, her tone
defeated.
“Wait,
what?” I look away from my watch and feel my heartbeat quicken.
“But if you do that—”
“I
can finish these summer classes another time. Maybe next year—”
“No.
No way.” I shake my head and suck air in through my gritted teeth.
She’s worked so hard for this. We’ve
worked
so hard for this. “You only have a few more classes!”
“I
can’t let you keep doing this.” She gestures toward my room,
where my computer is.
“And
I can’t let you work yourself to death for… What? This tiny
apartment, while that asshole doesn’t do a damn thing to—”
“Divya.
Language,” she scolds, but her tone is undermined by a soft grin
peeking in at the corner of her mouth. “He’s still your fath—”
“I’ll do my
part,” I say resolutely, stopping her from saying that word. “I
can deal with it. I want to. You will not give up going to school. If
you do that, he wins. Besides, I’ve…got some gadgets I can sell
this month.”
“I just… I
don’t want you giving up on your dreams, so I can keep chasing
mine. I’m the parent. What does all this say about me?” My mom
exhales, and I catch her lip quivering just a little. Then she
inhales sharply, burying whatever was about to surface, and I almost
smile, as weird as that sounds. It’s just our way, you know?
Take
the pain in. Bury it down deep.
“We’re
a team.” I reach out and grasp her hands again, and she inhales
quickly once more.
It’s
in these quiet moments we have together, wrestling with these
challenges, that the anger I feel—the rage over this small
apartment that’s replaced our home, the overdrafts in our bank
accounts, all the time I’ve given up—is replaced with something
else.
With
how proud I am of her, for starting over the way she has.
“I’m
not sure what I did to deserve you.”
Deserve.
I
feel my chest cave in a little at the word as I look again at the
date on the beautiful display of this watch. I know I need to sell
it. I know I do. The couch. That crappy mattress. My dwindling bank
account. The upcoming bills.
The
required sponsorship agreement to wear this watch in all my videos
for a month, in exchange for keeping the watch, would be over in just
a few days. I could easily get $500 for it on an auction site or
maybe a little less at the used-electronics shop downtown. One means
more money, but it also means having my address out there, which is
something I avoid like the plague—though having friends like
Rebekah mail the gad gets for me has proved a relatively safe way to
do it. The other means less money, but the return is immediate, at
least. Several of the employees there watch my stream, however, and
con versations with them are often pretty awkward.
I’d
hoped that maybe, just maybe, I’d get to keep this one thing. Isn’t
that something I
deserve?
Between helping Mom with the rent while she finishes up school and
pitching in for groceries and trying to put a little money aside for
my own tuition in the fall at the community college… God, I’d at
least earned this much, right?
The
watch buzzes against my wrist, a pleasant feeling. As a text message
flashes across the screen, I feel a pang of wonder and regret over
how a display so small can still have a better resolution than the
television in our living room.
THE
GALAXY WAITS FOR NO ONE,
YOU
READY D1V?
—COMMANDER
(RE)BEKAH
I smile at the note
from my producer-slash-best-friend, then look up as my mom makes her
way toward the front door of our apartment, tossing a bag over her
shoulder.
“I’ll be back
around ten or so,” Mom says, sounding tired. “Just be careful,
okay?”
“I always am,”
I promise, walking over to give her a hug. It’s sweet, her constant
reminders to be careful, to check in, especially since all I
generally do while she’s gone is hang out in front of the computer.
But I get it. Even the Internet can be a dangerous place. The threats
on social media and the emails that I get—all sent by anonymous
trolls with untraceable accounts—are proof of that.
Still, as soon as
the door closes, I bolt across the living room and into my small
bedroom, which is basically just a bed, a tiny dresser, and my
workstation. I’ve kept it simple since the move and my parents
split.
The only thing
that’s far from simple is my gaming rig.
When my Glitch
stream hit critical mass at one hundred thousand subscribers about a
year and a half ago, a gaming company was kind enough to sponsor my
rig. It’s extravagant to the point of being comical, with bright
neon-blue lighting pouring out the back of the system and a clear
case that shows off the needless LED illumination. Like having shiny
lights makes it go any faster. I never got it when dudes at my school
put flashy lights on their cars, and I don’t get it any more on a
computer.
But it was free, so
I’m certainly not going to complain.
I shake the mouse
to awaken the sleeping monster, and my widescreen LED monitor flashes
to life. It’s one of those screens that bend toward the edges, the
curves of the monitor bordering on sexy. I adjust my webcam,
which—along with my beaten-up Ikea table that’s not even a
desk—is one of the few non-sponsored things in my space. It’s an
aging thing, but the resolution is still HD and flawless, so unless a
free one is somehow going to drop into my lap—and it probably
won’t, because you can’t show off a webcam in a digital stream or
a recorded sponsored video when you’re filming with said
camera—it’ll do the trick.
I navigate over to
Glitch and open my streaming application. Almost immediately,
Rebekah’s face pops up in a little window on the edge of my screen.
I grin at the sight of her new hairstyle, her usually blond and spiky
hair now dyed a brilliant shade of blood orange, a hue as vibrant as
her personality. The sides of her head are buzzed, too, and the
overall effect is awesome.
Rebekah smiles and
waves at me. “You ready to explore the cosmos once more?” she
asks, her voice bright in my computer’s speakers. I can hear her
keys clicking loudly as she types, her hands making quick work of
something on the other side of the screen. I open my mouth to say
something, but she jumps in before I can. “Yes, yes, I’ll be on
mute once we get in, shut up.”
I laugh and glance
at myself in the mirror I’ve got attached to the side of my monitor
with a long metal arm—an old bike mirror that I repurposed to make
sure my makeup and hair are on point in these videos. Even though the
streams are all about the games, there’s nothing wrong with looking
a little cute, even if it’s just for myself. I run a finger over
one of my eyebrows, smoothing it out, and make a note to tweeze them
just a little bit later. I’ve got my mother’s strong brows, black
and rebellious. We’re frequently in battle with one another, me
armed with my tweezers, my eyebrows wielding their
growing-faster-than-weeds genes.
“How much time do
we have?” I ask, tilting my head back and forth.
“About five
minutes. And you look fine, stop it,” she grumbles. I push the
mirror away, the metal arm making a squeaking noise, and I see
Rebekah roll her eyes. “You could just use a compact like a normal
person, you know.”
“It’s vintage,”
I say, leaning in toward my computer mic. “I’m being hip.”
“You. Hip.” She
chuckles. “Please save the jokes for the stream. It’s good
content.”
I flash her a scowl
and load up my social feeds on the desktop, my watch still
illuminating with notifications. I decide to leave them unchecked on
the actual device and scope them out on the computer instead, so when
people are watching, they can see the watch in action. That should
score me some extra goodwill with sponsors, and maybe it’ll look
like I’m more popular than people think I am.
Because that’s my
life. Plenty of social notifications, but zero texts or missed calls.
The feeds are
surprisingly calm this evening, a bundle of people posting about how
excited they are for my upcoming stream, playing Reclaim the Sun on
their own, curious to see what I’m finding… Not bad. There are a
few dumpster-fire comments directed at the way I look and some racist
remarks by people with no avatars, cowards who won’t show their
faces, but nothing out of the usual.
Ah. Lovely. Someone
wants me to wear less clothing in this stream. Blocked. A link to
someone promoting my upcoming appearance at New York GamesCon, nice.
Retweeted. A post suggesting I wear a skimpier top, and someone
agreeing. Charming. Blocked and blocked.
Why is it that the
people who always leave the grossest, rudest, and occasionally
sexist, racist, or religiously intolerant comments never seem to have
an avatar connected to their social profiles? Hiding behind a blank
profile picture? How brave. How courageous.
And never mind all
the messages that I assume are supposed to be flirtatious, but are
actually anything but. Real original, saying “hey” and that’s
it, then spewing a bunch of foul-mouthed nonsense when they don’t
get a response. Hey, anonymous bro, I’m not here to be sexualized
by strangers on the Internet. It’s creepy and disgusting. Can’t I
just have fun without being objectified?
“Div!” Rebekah
shouts, and I jump in my seat a little.
“Yeah, hey, I’m
here,” I mumble, looking around for my Bluetooth earpiece, trying
to force myself into a better mood.
This
is why you don’t read the comments, Divya.
Excerpted
from Don’t
Read the Comments by
Eric Smith, Copyright ©
2020 by Eric Smith. Published by Inkyard Press.
~~~***~~~***~~~ AUTHOR BIO ~~~***~~~***~~~
Eric Smith is an author, prolific book
blogger, and literary agent from New Jersey, currently living in
Philadelphia. Smith cohosts Book Riot’s newest podcast, HEY YA,
with non-fiction YA author Kelly Jensen. He can regularly be found
writing for Book Riot’s blog, as well as Barnes & Noble’s
Teen Reads blog, Paste Magazine, and Publishing Crawl. Smith also has
a growing Twitter platform of over 40,000 followers
(@ericsmithrocks).
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